hey you,
i know how you feel today.its mother's day.i know either you are away from your mom or your mom is away from you infinitely away.she has gone to a distance that you cannot travel but they say 'you know she is around' to console you,they dont know what else to say,how to ease your pain.
that's what you say to calm yourself and i know this,i know for sure
that doesn't work for you,does it? you have made peace with hundreds of things in life but you cannot make peace with the regret that you live with of not spending enough time with your mom and dad when they were around.
Then there are semi lucky people like me who are blessed to have mom and dad a call away.those who are in a situation like me will very well understand this.i am away from my native town for more than 10 years now. away from being caught stealing that 6th piece of kaju katli kept for guest in the fridge,away from being caught wearing improper clothes, away from being noticed that i haven't had food the whole day, away from the eyes that could read me in seconds and tell me excatly what i need to hear,away from that tender touch which made me feel so special.so very away from the feeling of surity that 'i am one in a million beti'there are billions of same out here.it hurts me it put me in extreme guilt that i know when i am growing my mom dad are ageing too.there are limited number of days that i can spend with them but i don't.they said once kids gets busy as they grow up.i defended as a kid now i bow my head they were right.i am meaner then they think i am.but i miss you mom.i treat her like a boyfriend.there are so many vaccums and incomplete desires in a mother. i have tried to fill and fulfill her unexplored emotions and never felt before feelings, like feeling of recieving a love note with flowers on her beauty or a nice saree with matching earing kept in her room with an order of getting ready at 7 for dinner.adernaline rush when she couldn't believe that she is actually seeing me in her college disturbing her running class.that's we have done in our love relationships,haven't we?
on this mother's day those who are super lucky to have your mom around please make her your girlfriend.she deserves the world and trust me not for the day but every single day of her life is to be celebrated.
i know how you feel today.its mother's day.i know either you are away from your mom or your mom is away from you infinitely away.she has gone to a distance that you cannot travel but they say 'you know she is around' to console you,they dont know what else to say,how to ease your pain.
that's what you say to calm yourself and i know this,i know for sure
that doesn't work for you,does it? you have made peace with hundreds of things in life but you cannot make peace with the regret that you live with of not spending enough time with your mom and dad when they were around.
Then there are semi lucky people like me who are blessed to have mom and dad a call away.those who are in a situation like me will very well understand this.i am away from my native town for more than 10 years now. away from being caught stealing that 6th piece of kaju katli kept for guest in the fridge,away from being caught wearing improper clothes, away from being noticed that i haven't had food the whole day, away from the eyes that could read me in seconds and tell me excatly what i need to hear,away from that tender touch which made me feel so special.so very away from the feeling of surity that 'i am one in a million beti'there are billions of same out here.it hurts me it put me in extreme guilt that i know when i am growing my mom dad are ageing too.there are limited number of days that i can spend with them but i don't.they said once kids gets busy as they grow up.i defended as a kid now i bow my head they were right.i am meaner then they think i am.but i miss you mom.i treat her like a boyfriend.there are so many vaccums and incomplete desires in a mother. i have tried to fill and fulfill her unexplored emotions and never felt before feelings, like feeling of recieving a love note with flowers on her beauty or a nice saree with matching earing kept in her room with an order of getting ready at 7 for dinner.adernaline rush when she couldn't believe that she is actually seeing me in her college disturbing her running class.that's we have done in our love relationships,haven't we?
on this mother's day those who are super lucky to have your mom around please make her your girlfriend.she deserves the world and trust me not for the day but every single day of her life is to be celebrated.
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